“For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.” ~1 Corinthians 12:12~
Some people have their lives laid out. They are excellent at making goals and sticking to them. They know where they will be one year from now, five years from now and twenty years from now. I have never been one of those people.
Yes, it is true that I have made long-term goals and stuck to them and seen them fulfilled, but how I was to get there was rarely clear.
In the past seven years or so, my path has been obscured by a continual fog. I would try going one direction only to find that way was blocked. Then I would try another direction and that would end up in a muddy mess. I would backtrack and try another route, only to find that it also did not work. At times, a ray of light would shine through the fog and I would think “Oh yes, now I know what to do!” And then, as in the past, that endeavor would also fail.
Though I do not often talk about it, discouragement, failure, sadness and depression have been my companions often on a daily basis. I’ve watered my pillow with more tears that I want to remember.
Yet through all of this, I have learned one lesson: the turtle won the race through constancy, not speed. So though I continue to struggle through the fog, I know I will ultimately reach the goals I have set for myself. I still don’t know how I will get there, but I trust that I will. I now see through a glass darkly, but one day I hope to be on the other side of that glass. And one day…I will see those dreams come true.