I have dreamt all of my life about being a writer. I have been able to do so in various formats for school and work, but those were always on subjects that someone else wanted me to write about. I have seldom written what was inside of me. That is what this blog is about…letting the real me out into the world to be seen.
Also a note about why my blog is named the way it is: most of my younger life, I was the girl who held up the walls while I watched my friends dance. Always on the fringe of the crowd, I was your classic nerd: quiet, painfully shy, the one who always had her nose buried in a book. I had thick, unruly, chestnut-colored hair, glasses and freckles. We didn’t have much money and I often wore my older sisters’ hand-me-downs (though I think my mother would rain down hailstones on me from heaven if I didn’t acknowledge that I had some new clothes as well.) I was the ultimate wallflower.
Fortunately, with each passing year, I began to discover small slivers of confidence. The first petals of the flower began to unfold. First it was my intelligence, then my style, and finally, I began to embrace my beauty….both the inner and the outer.
Now, finally, in my 41st year, I am celebrating the life of a courageous woman. Though I have much life yet to learn and to live, I am finally at peace with who I am and who I still have yet to become. There are trials still yet to be conquered, old negative fears that must still be hushed, and challenges that have yet to be faced. But with each step, the petals continue to unfold and the wallflower is blossoming.