Yes I did! I decided it was high time to gather most of my links, samples and work in one site to use as a professional portfolio. If you know of anyone who is seeking a writer and/or editor, please send them my way! They are welcome to send me a message about what they are seeking on that site. Yes, I will still be posting here, of course, but this will be used as a professional site for my work.
(It’s also a good place to publish the $600 worth of articles I never got paid for. haha! :p )
I was in the vitamin aisle wondering if I had enough money to buy my vitamins or if I should wait until I had a secure income. I knew I was going to have to borrow money to make rent and wondered if the vitamins went on the necessity list or the “want” list. Then I glanced over my shoulder and saw her. She was sitting on the metal bench at the pharmacy. She was in her pajamas, talking on her cell phone and trying her best to wipe the tears away so others would not notice.
It was the day after Thanksgiving and shoppers were rushing by trying to get the best Christmas sales. There was a general air of jolliness as the people passed, scurrying to get their errands done. But there was no happiness in her face. Our eyes met and for that brief moment, I saw the pain, the sadness, that desperate air of wanting to do…something and not knowing what to do. It tugged at my heart. I recognized that pain and that look in her eyes. I have known it all too well.
Feeling shy and indecisive, I turned away. Wasn’t that the polite thing to do when someone was hurting? I mean, you don’t just walk up and hug a stranger. I turned and looked at her again and then made up my mind. There are times when you need to reach beyond your comfort zone.
Walking over to the flowers, I purchased a bouquet and then quickly made my way back hoping she was still there. She was pacing in front of the pharmacy waiting for her prescription to be filled. Nervously, I walked up to her and handed her the flowers and said “Whatever it is, I hope it gets better soon. Merry Christmas.” And then suddenly feeling a great deal of love, I reached out and hugged her and she hugged me back. “Thank you,” she said quietly. I looked in her eyes and though there were tears, I also saw surprise and something else…hope. I turned and walked away and as I did so, she called out “Merry Christmas!” I smiled and disappeared. For the rest of the day, the memory of her brave smile and sudden “Merry Christmas” stayed in my mind and I felt as if my own worries and burdens had somehow been lifted.
I do not tell you this story to make myself look like something I am not. I tell you this story as a reminder that the best thing we can do to feel better about our own situations in life is to reach out and offer love, compassion and service to others. If random acts of kindness were the hallmark of our society, there would not be so much sadness, so much anger and so much hatred.
So when you feel as if despair has taken hold and you can’t see outside of yourself, do me one favor…look around, find someone who needs a hand of compassion and reach out with love. I promise you that your own burdens will seem lifted in return. Love sent to you all…
Just a quick link to my third video talking about improving dating profiles. Hope everyone is doing well and love and hugs sent out across the world! :)
The above title is in reference to a song written by U2, one of my all-time favorite bands. Though the lyrics of the song speak of another subject, the title seems to permeate down to the inner most recesses of my soul. It seems to have become the motto of my life.
When I was young, traveling about the world and moving was exciting. It was thrilling to think about what lay just beyond the edge of my vision.
But these days, moving and starting over has become a chore to be endured. I’ve done it so many times that I can’t remember all the places I’ve lived. There have been multiple and various reasons for the moves and all of them logical (though many people just call me crazy). From job changes to difficult living circumstances to inability to afford where I was living, I’ve moved more than most people will move in a lifetime.
Yet the real truth is I’m “running to stand still.” I’ve had a dream and a vision of my life that has never come to fruition. A cottage-like home of my own surrounded by flowers and greenery, a loving husband, 2 cats (yes, must have my cats!), books and a window overlooking my garden as I write my novels. Simple, peaceful and quiet…my “still” place. I was never very materialistic (though I always joked with my girlfriends that I would marry a millionaire), I just wanted a cozy, quiet place to call my own.
Yet, for whatever reason, this has eluded me. I still rent a room in someone else’s house. I still struggle on a daily basis to meet the financial basics of life. My relationships have been…well, we’ll save that for another day. And my writing, though it has improved, has yet to bring me the steady income I have sought. The dream of my little cottage seems as far removed from me as it did when I was a young girl. Even the most hopeful of people get discouraged sometimes and today is that day.
But…as I’ve pointed out many times, who knows what tomorrow will bring? And so, with a sigh, I close another day with still a flicker of hope that I will yet see my dreams become a reality.
After much prodding by several friends, I finally took the giant leap and started doing videos on YouTube. It’s going to be aimed at several different subjects: self-confidence, body positivity, online dating, travel and more. It’s a scary leap to transition from writing to videos, but it’s just another way of helping to lift and strengthen others to get through our daily lives.
I will still be writing on here, but will post video links on occasion as well. Hugs and love to you all!