Just recently I saw the movie “Moana” by Disney for the first time. I put it on while I was working and found myself drawn into the story. The symbolism of the journey of Moana, both physical and spiritual, reminded me of so many parallels in my own life. Then came the climax of the movie where Moana confronts the demon Te Ka and she sings these lines…
“They have stolen the heart from inside you
But this does not define you
This is not who you are
You know who you are…
Who you truly are…”
I couldn’t understand why, but I sat there with tears streaming down my cheeks. The lines “they have stolen the heart from inside you” shot straight through me like an arrow piercing my soul. I thought back to the numerous rejections I’ve had from relationships or through other experiences and I realized that yes…they had stolen my heart.
As I sat there, I realized that because of so many painful experiences, that my heart had closed itself to love and to life in order to “protect” itself. I was hiding from the world in every possible way, rarely letting the real me out to be seen. I had arrived at a state where opening myself to a new relationship or even a new dream seemed beyond my power or strength. The fear of another heartbreak, another rejection, or another failure and the resulting searing pain from it held me in its tight grip. How could I possibly try again knowing it would likely end in the same result?
But then the lines from the rest of the verse whispered through my mind “But this does not define you. This is not who you are. You know who you are…who you truly are.” Those lines seeped into my soul…lovingly, tenderly and quietly, melting the ice that had surrounded my heart.
The gentle voice reminded me that I was someone worth loving…that I was of great worth. That I was a woman who had many good qualities and that I had much to give, not only as a romantic partner, but in so many other ways as well. I wept, but the tears seemed to melt away the last tendrils of ice around my heart. I took a deep breath, brushed away the last remaining tears and felt calm and peace.
I know who I am…who I truly am. And though the world will still try to shout at me and tell me that I can’t possibly succeed, there is a quiet voice inside reminding me that I will.